Im drowning.

Choking on everything around me

I can't get any air

Someone pull me out

Pull me out of this suffocating mass.

Faces.

Is there someone behind your face?
is there a mind that thinks
Do you live in your head as i do?
Please tell me your not another face that lies.
I want you to know everything that you possibly can
Don't give me that blank stare when you can't understand.
....
.....
.......
I don't think anyone understands how often im inside my head.
I can't sleep normally with all this thinking.
Its in my head its in my dreams its in my life
all i can ever do is think.
Think about everything i could possibly understand.
I can't do it if you can't.
Be more than a face with empty eyes
Inspire me make....me think
I need it
I need original.
I can't take a fake world.
Live it.
Please.
It's all i can really do at this moment.
....
And I love movies like cashback.
Amazing work Sean ellis.
Way to go:]]

Out of bed.

Ive got that great just got out of bed curly wavy sort of thing going on with my hair, It's funny though because i literally did just get out of bed and im kinda liking whats going on with it.
Anyways so i got up to blog since i have not updated in a week or so.
-Insert something deeply poetic-
Bullet point one.
If you have seen the spirit you will know what im talking about, But for some reason with every guy i meet i instantly feel the need to care for them and make sure they are happy. Even if i don't like or are fond of or "Am Crushing" on said guys, I still feel the need. It's quite quite silly and im not sure how to fix it. Guess i have some motherly qualities about me.
Which is weird cause i swear on the cheese and tortillas i eat everyday at work that i will never have children. Seriously if i were living where i do now, Doing what i do and had children i would be considered trashy and under average.
Considering the big fact that i don't have any kids (that im aware of. JK). Im living quite an above average life. I definatly have plenty of money, A lovely new home that is to die for and one cat who is irresistable. I have great roommates and could not wish for a better life.
It's funny how kids can change everything.
Bullet point two.
Not having any ever.
:]]

The waitress and the cow.

And as im sweeping my station at work, picking up all the crumb piles of chips
I see my manager miguel walking towards me ready to sit me a two top.
Now here is the treat...
Its a man and his wife, the wife look normal enough, but the man....
The man is walking down the aisle half limping on account he is coughing so hard and has what looks a small but bulging tumor on his forehead.
I can't help but think, oh great here is my daily dosage of swine flu.
Don't get me wrong i love my job, but when this shit happens...
It makes me wanna run for the hills like the barns on fire.

Verde.

Your wearing these
under your suit.
and that makes me giggle
quite a bit :D

You tell me.

You can't love me anymore.
You tell me you don't want to.
You can't be my friend anymore.
You tell me you don't want to.
You love being in bed with me
But you tell me you don't know if you want to.
So..
I can't love you either
I don't want to.
I will still be your friend
I would love to.
And i love being in bed with you
And you already know i want to.

So lets not care.
What anyone thinks.
And both do what we want to :]]

DeVotchKa.

My new love.
Its making me draw again.
Its funny how music can do such big things for you.
Im so happy :]