Hanging out with my belly out.

HO-Kay so. Being pregnant is so not as bad as everyone makes it sound. I only had morning sickness for about a month out of nine and its no biggie. Silly dramatic people :]

18 weeks :]

Baby Mama

An...

An increased detachment from reality.
I guess is what you would call what is going on.

Romance.

Can love really be so fleeting? - Ben Willis.
I share just enough on this blog to let you have a glimpse.
I will never share it all.
I believe mystery is a key thing in people.
I don't want to know everything about you
I don't care where you came from
I don't care what you did.
If I love to be around you for the reasons unknown then just let it be.
Be abstract with me please
Run in the wind with me.
Just forget your structure it does not matter right now.
Do it for me.
Just touch my skin and feel with me now.
Thats all i need
And all i want ever.

Shit.

Shit Shit Shit Shit Shit Shit Shit Shit.
Ill give it one more week.
:/
Shit.

Very True

Ben Willis: Once upon a time, I wanted to know what love was. Love is there if you want it to be. You just have to see that it's wrapped in beauty and hidden away in between the seconds of your life. If you don't stop for a minute, you might miss it.
I read once about a woman whose secret fantasy was to have an affair with an artist. She thought he would really see her. He would see every curve, every line, every indentation and love them because they were part of the beauty that made her unique.
Crush. It's funny how the same word for the feeling of disappointment can be used for the feeling of attraction. The Oxford English Dictionary states one of the meanings for the word crushed as "a strong and unreasoning, but transitory attachment."

Im drowning.

Choking on everything around me

I can't get any air

Someone pull me out

Pull me out of this suffocating mass.

Faces.

Is there someone behind your face?
is there a mind that thinks
Do you live in your head as i do?
Please tell me your not another face that lies.
I want you to know everything that you possibly can
Don't give me that blank stare when you can't understand.
....
.....
.......
I don't think anyone understands how often im inside my head.
I can't sleep normally with all this thinking.
Its in my head its in my dreams its in my life
all i can ever do is think.
Think about everything i could possibly understand.
I can't do it if you can't.
Be more than a face with empty eyes
Inspire me make....me think
I need it
I need original.
I can't take a fake world.
Live it.
Please.
It's all i can really do at this moment.
....
And I love movies like cashback.
Amazing work Sean ellis.
Way to go:]]

Out of bed.

Ive got that great just got out of bed curly wavy sort of thing going on with my hair, It's funny though because i literally did just get out of bed and im kinda liking whats going on with it.
Anyways so i got up to blog since i have not updated in a week or so.
-Insert something deeply poetic-
Bullet point one.
If you have seen the spirit you will know what im talking about, But for some reason with every guy i meet i instantly feel the need to care for them and make sure they are happy. Even if i don't like or are fond of or "Am Crushing" on said guys, I still feel the need. It's quite quite silly and im not sure how to fix it. Guess i have some motherly qualities about me.
Which is weird cause i swear on the cheese and tortillas i eat everyday at work that i will never have children. Seriously if i were living where i do now, Doing what i do and had children i would be considered trashy and under average.
Considering the big fact that i don't have any kids (that im aware of. JK). Im living quite an above average life. I definatly have plenty of money, A lovely new home that is to die for and one cat who is irresistable. I have great roommates and could not wish for a better life.
It's funny how kids can change everything.
Bullet point two.
Not having any ever.
:]]

The waitress and the cow.

And as im sweeping my station at work, picking up all the crumb piles of chips
I see my manager miguel walking towards me ready to sit me a two top.
Now here is the treat...
Its a man and his wife, the wife look normal enough, but the man....
The man is walking down the aisle half limping on account he is coughing so hard and has what looks a small but bulging tumor on his forehead.
I can't help but think, oh great here is my daily dosage of swine flu.
Don't get me wrong i love my job, but when this shit happens...
It makes me wanna run for the hills like the barns on fire.

Verde.

Your wearing these
under your suit.
and that makes me giggle
quite a bit :D

You tell me.

You can't love me anymore.
You tell me you don't want to.
You can't be my friend anymore.
You tell me you don't want to.
You love being in bed with me
But you tell me you don't know if you want to.
So..
I can't love you either
I don't want to.
I will still be your friend
I would love to.
And i love being in bed with you
And you already know i want to.

So lets not care.
What anyone thinks.
And both do what we want to :]]

DeVotchKa.

My new love.
Its making me draw again.
Its funny how music can do such big things for you.
Im so happy :]

Litteh Kitteh.

My kitty is so little she sleeps in my lap
My kitty is so tiny she always needs a nap
My kitty is so small she sits up on muh shoulder
My kitty is so young she always makes me hold her
My kitty is so itteh bitteh she could get eaten by a frog
But my kitty is so big cause she beats up my dog :]
-Dedicated to tila tequila
XD

Amore

I love my life.
That is that.

Don't give a shit.

I just don't really care anymore.
yep.

So there are those girls

They think they have the world and everything in it.
Alot do.
Although there is one i know of right now who thinks she does....But its because she tied everyone down.
She thinks she has happiness, Love, Friends.
She doesn't.
I feel sorry for her cause she traps everyone into her little life.
Oh sheltered life.
You probably know who im talking about i don't care.
She is pathetic and i hope she gets what she deserves.
Sorry sweetie but its not all rainbows and kisses :]]

SL,UT

Another day in this bipolar city, one day its freaking hot and now its storming.
I have been here since tuesday morning at four a.m. I love it here. Its gorgeous.
So many stories i have now :]]
Boy jordan has been amazing and i missed cameron a thousand skittles and grapefruits.
I can't help but think about whats been going on in saint george.
I also can't get him out of my head. Please be happy you know who you are, I hope your marriage works out for both of you.
Also earning someones trust back is quite the mission. I recently fucked it up and can't get it back. I have been trying so hard but i think its safe to say ive given up. With no help from him i can't help but fail. Sigh Sigh.
Oh well life goes on and its a good life.
I love my friends and family, pets etc.
Now im off to get ready for salt lake party!!!!
:]]]

Heaven or Hell

This is heaven im sure.
My other blog about the boy thing is too true. Like bad haha.
Anyways a boy made fun of me for having this today, but i like it. It makes me feel better. Make fun if you would like does not matter to me :]]